Monday, May 21, 2012

Welcome To My Blog

As I awoke this morning, I looked out my bedroom window, and all I could see was gray, where I would normally see a conifer infested mountain. I rubbed my eyes, trying to shake the fog from my head, but gray remained the only thing visible outside that window. I rolled over, feeling grateful that today's hike up that mountain had been cancelled due to inclement weather. As Lola, my 10 month old Mini Aussie, came and smothered me with her warm, sloppy puppy kisses, I had no idea that the gray fog outside my window, was a foretelling of things to come. It is Monday morning of a long weekend. It is my 2nd son's 25th birthday. After seeing that my menagerie of animals had been fed and watered, hubby and I headed out to the local cafe for breakfast, where I proceeded to bombard our birthday boy with text messages, wishing him a happy day. Visiting the birthday boy is out of the question, as he is 2400 kms away in Whitehorse, YT. With breakfast finished, and bellies full, hubby and I headed home, wondering how we were going to spend this wet and ugly day.  We didn't have to wonder long. The phone rang shortly after arriving home. It was our daughter, our 3rd and youngest child. She was absolutely distraught. She awoke this morning to an email from a friend of our eldest son, who has lived in Sydney, Australia, for the past 7 years. He has lived there since becoming clean from heroin addiction - an addiction that proceeded to tear our family apart when he was a teenager. He is now 28 years old, and the addiction is back. My recent suspicions have been confirmed.  That horrible, endless roller coaster ride is afflicting our family once again. Dealing with this half way across the world is not going to be easy. It is my hope that writing about this journey will help us through what promises to be a harrowing and erratic journey, if past experiences are anything to go by. It is my even bigger hope, that A will once again emerge happy and healthy from his reunion with hell.

Welcome To My Blog

6 comments:

  1. Wish I could give you a hug right now. It hurts to read this. I hope your son emerges from this dark place SOON. I wish I had something really encouraging to say, but it sounds like you probably already know all there is to know. Writing has really helped me and I hope it helps you also!!!

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  2. Thanks so much Barbara. There was very little help for parents when we were going through this before, and blogging was almost unheard of. It has at least helped me get through today, knowing that I am not alone out there. I am very grateful for the 7 years of remission we had, and hope I can stay strong.

    Kiz

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  3. Sorry to welcome you to our community. But we all welcome with open arms.

    I have provided a link to your blog on mine.

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  4. Thank you for that Dad and Mom - I'm glad there is a caring community of others with similar stories to be joined this time around.

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  5. That roller coaster is one I am trying to stop. I know the disappointment of several periods of sobriety. Some short some long. I wish you the best and know we all know what its like. I say this a lot in our blog there is no better relief than to know we are not alone. ((((hugs))))

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  6. Thank you for your support Heidi and Ashley.

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